At the conference a year ago, I was struck by a discussion of Luke 5.17-26 (the story of Jesus healing the paralyzed man whose friends lowered him through the roof to Jesus). In verse 20, we see Jesus respond to the faith of the friends, declare the man forgiven of his sins, and physically heal him. Often, I think about needing to have my own faith and assurance for my own prayers to be answered (James 1.6-7), but in this situation it was the faith of the friends that triggered the forgiveness and healing. The paralyzed man was physically, and potentially spiritually, too weak to come before Jesus on his own. We do not know this paralytic’s backstory or how he felt about his situation. All we are told about his identity is his condition; he is given no description other than “a man who was paralyzed.” But Jesus responds to the faith of this man’s friends, and the paralytic man is healed.
Last year, during our discussion on this passage, it was pointed out that we may find ourselves in the position of the paralytic man and sometimes as the friends. When in the role of the friend, our task is to help “carry the mat” for the person or people who may be too weak, too overwhelmed, too discouraged or despondent to bring themselves to Jesus. We can be present with them in their pain (without needing to offer cliché words of comfort), and we can persistently lift these hurting friends up in prayer; we can bring them, their hurts, and their requests before God when they may not be able to.
After last year’s conference, I felt a burden to redouble our efforts to carry our friends’ mat following the loss of their daughter. We prayed for them, we spent time with them, we prayed with faith they may not have been able to muster themselves. These friends continued to face other overwhelming challenges, and we continued to pray with them and for them.
These same friends have known about our struggle with infertility. It took almost three years of trying for our daughter to be conceived. And after over three years of trying again, we had still been unable to conceive a second time. In the midst of their own struggles and losses, these same friends continued to tell us that they were praying for us and for another child. This summer, Emily found out she was pregnant, and we wept with joy with these friends at this news. Three years of silent suffering were gone. Then unimaginably, we lost the baby. And the grief of this loss was compounded by the grief of returning to the ambiguous grief of infertility. The pain and darkness were overwhelming. The next two months were heavy with the loss as we grappled to move forward however feebly.
And our friends kept praying for us to have another child. I prayed too; it wasn’t that I stopped praying, but my prayers were base-level prayers. I knew God could still work this miracle of life again, He is the author of such things, but I could not rouse myself to pray beyond simple intellectual prayers. I’m not sure how much faith or emotion I was able to invest. This was not for a lack of faith, but from a heaviness weighing on my faith for this prayer to be answered.
This year at the conference, thirty minutes before the opening reception, Emily got a positive pregnancy test. We were stunned. Was this real? What do we do? We shared this miraculous news with these same friends, who were also at the conference, and the husband responded immediately by saying “we haven’t stopped praying for you.”
I was overwhelmed with gratitude at his words. I felt known and loved by God and by our friends. A year after feeling called to carry our friends’ mat, I saw powerfully how they had been carrying our mat too. They had been praying for this baby with greater faith and confidence than I had; they had been bringing us, and our longing for a second child, to the feet of Jesus when we were too weak and discouraged to do so ourselves. It was such a blessing to realize how much we needed these friends to carry us. Faith is personal, but it is also familial. It is communal. There is a great mystery in how our faith and the faith of our friends and family interact with the sovereignty of God. We are not alone when it comes to carrying our requests to God, and we are not meant to be.
We have a powerful opportunity to care for those around us by lifting them up in prayer and helping shepherd their needs to Jesus our great shepherd who cares for us. I want to be more intentional to have people in my life whom I am persistently praying for and I know are persistently praying for me. Together, we are blessed when we carry each other to Jesus. We may not always be able to bring ourselves to Him, we may be too weak, tired, or discouraged, but together our prayers can help each other encounter Jesus when we lift each other up to Him. Through this, we are brought closer to God and each other, and God is glorified by this.